Im Back!!

Sunday, September 12, 2004
10:59 p.m.
Halo Peeps! It have been over a month since I last updated my blog.. hahakz.. well, if I update also like as if anybody will read like that.. keke.. cos the words are all so blur..

Well anyway,today is the last day of the September Holidays.. Besok aje dah start prelims.. Haiz.. Didn't really study much.. In fact, I simply wish that tomorrow will be the beginning of secondary 3 school life.. I've wasted lots of time.. I just simply can't concerntrate on my studies.. Problems problems problems.. tak habis2.. Haiz..

I wont be surprise if I end up in ITE or ITC next year.. My ambition is to be a politician.. but just look at the rate that Im falling, I wont make it! haiz.. Thinking of it, ITE or ITC isn't that bad too. They are more to practical while Poly and JC are more to theory.. If I started off at ITC, and later graduate to Poly, I would have both practical and theory skills..

I really dont know where am I gonna be next year.. Maybe I'll probably end up selling tissue paper outside Tampines Mrt Station.. haiz...

School Groove..

Wednesday, August 11, 2004
07:13p.m.
Halo everybody... had a great time today..I also dont know why... keke.. During eril, a girl introduced a book called.. "A boy called it.." Actually, heard bout the book a few months ago.. If I'm not mistaken, she read the book when we were at The Changi Airport.. erm.. nvm.. I gotta read that book man...

Anw, tadi selalu terserempak ngan si Ira a lot of times..keke.. during lessons.. during reccess.. after school.. hahakz.. I think I accidentally banged into her during recess, den dier ckp "lame".. hahakz.. giler nye org.. Didn't really eat much during recess, stakat makan some kinda of sandwitch thingee samer beli PE T Shirt..

PE today totally suckz.. Mr Ryan Lee was like torturing us like that.. We did about a hundred push ups and 50 sit ups in total... Others bangun lambat sikit aje sumer kene punished.. Geram aje tengok dier standing there blowing his whistle while we all had to suffer... Haiyo.. Sotz ar dat guy..

After school, si Effie samer Helmi gi berak.. hahakz, haprak.. Effie went to the fourth floor toilet while Helmi went to the ground floor toilet.. keke.. Irfan and I had such a great time disturbing si Helmi.. hahakz..When we opened the toilet door widely,Helmi panic giler seh.. in the end he climb over to the next cubical to wash up.. Rabak eh? keke.. kecoh~ hahakz..

Tomorrow, Saifuddin samer Taufiq nye hari jadi! woo hoo! apa lagi? kita kasi itu present lar.. Muhuwahahahaz.. Well, gtg now. Nak smayang dokz... Ciao.. ;)

Happy 39th birthday Singapore!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004
04:42 a.m.
What a long day.. Its 432am and I had just returned home... hahakz.. rabak eh... What did I do? Where have I've been? begini lar cerite nye.. keke..

Haliff,Helmi,Ashraf,Aliman,Rusydi and I went to kallang river to watch the fireworks.. One our way there we met lots of Punks.. I believe they are having "Chaos Day" or sumthing like that.. Im not sure... There was a human traffic jam.. Lots of people gathered at the Kallang River.. Ade yang set up their video cam.. Ade yang ngah fishing.. hahakz.. giler punye org.. Ramai jugak familiar faces kat sane.. We managed to find a perfect spot beside a green colour crane.. The fireworks were awesome.. Well, I no need to elaborate on that dont I? U've probably seen that in the TV.. keke...

After that we walked all the way to bugis and have a dinner kat burger king.. Around 1030, we took a bus home and join Fahmi and Effie gi lepak2 kat playground next to Tampines Mart nye mac...The others sumer went home earlier... Tibe2 terserempak ngan si Maya and she joined us for a while..bla bla bla...

At 12 30am, Fahmi went home while Haliff,Effie and I went to study under my block until around 4 30am.. keke.. sawan.. Around 4am, I received a msg from Farah.. entah ar ape dier cakap.. hahakz.. we assumed that dier ngah ngigau.. hahakz.. Well,I'm gonna have a long sleep now..

Sweet Dreamz.. ;D

Mari Kite ReWaNG!!

Sunday, August 8, 2004
11:13 a.m.
Skarang kat Jurong WEST! I'm at Irfan's house right now together with Ashraf,Haliff,Saiful,Wan,Fahmi,Effie,Azmi.. Taufiq had left earlier in the morning...

We all just woke up after a long tiring day... Actually not really tiring ar,at night we all stakat cuci pinggan,makan2,amek2 gambar, explore2, video-taking.. keke.. kekek..fun giler..

We start to go exploring kol 130am.. The unique thing about Irfan's place is that, its located next to a small forest... The area was not well-lighted..However we didn't experienced any strange encounter..Maybe cos of the fact that we were in a big group.. We want to separate into smaller groups tapi we only have one digicam.. ;S

At last, we create our own horror film.. ceh horror film pulak.. keke. Well, the video is about Wan,Taufiq and Me taking a lift up to Irfan's block... On the way up, we were supposed to get freaked out when we saw a figure(Azmi) looking straight at us from the lift's glass panel.. keke.. fun sia..If only I have a digicam, I would be able to share everything with you guys.. was a waste isn't it.. keke..

Some of us ended up sleeping kat Basketball Court while others like Taufiq,Wan,Azmi and me sleep at the Irfan's kitchen.. hahakz.. tak senonoh eh? ape nak buat, hall samer bilik sumer dah heavily occupied.. Biler ngah Subuh, si mak Irfan suruh tidur kat bilik.. Fuh! seronok... seronok habis.. hahakz..

We are now waiting for our turn to bathe.. In the afternoon, kene sambung rewang.. Woo hoo... SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU KAK IFA.. keke.. ;D

How Stupid CAN I BE??

Friday, August 6, 2004
11:32 p.m.
(Had wrote a long entry here..)But I decided not to post it.. Felt so frustrated.. Felt so dumB.. Really need to take some air.. Perhaps, overnight at Irfan's house is a great idea.. I'll Be posting a message on my phlogger.. Check it ait.. ? Till then.. ciao..

National Day Is COMING!

Friday, August 6, 2004
08:13 p.m.
Today, our school started at 8am.. Gerek... I wish that school will always start at 8am.. Cos, if school starts much later, I would no longer need to rush myself to go to school... I would simply wake up at 615 and leave my house at 7 and take a 40 minute bus ride to school... Normally, I have to wake up at 530.. And leave my house at 620.. If I dont, I would probably end up late and get a detention slip.. hahakz.. anw, our school celebrate National Day today.. Had visitors from old folks home.. Malay dance, people making music through using items such as pails etc etc, drama club, and choir towards the end of the celebration.. Its kinda boring.. Those people sitting at the galary had lots of fun while those sitting on the floor simply, kept quiet.. we tried to get our descipline mistress, Mrs Lee to sing but she isn't that sporty... Wat a waste.. hahakz.. Gonna sleep at Irfan's house(Jurong West) tomorrow.. together with my frens.. Irfan's sister is finally getting married on Sunday!.. Cant wait.. keke.. Wonder what adventure lies ahead.. perhaps we shall visit the graveyard next to his flat tomorrow.. keke.. Well, I think thats all... Here's a song.. "I Dont Wanna Know."... im not really an RMB fan but this song seems kinda nice... (WINK) keke.. enjoy wokiez.. taraz... :D

Photo Taking!

Wednesday, August 4, 2004
09:39 p.m.
Hey! guess wat? Today we had our photo taking.. hahakz.. Syoook.. keke.. Its my first time in four years to take a class photo with long hair.. hahakz.. For the past few years, I've been taking class photo with my head bold.. keke.. sedih eh? hahakz.. I still remember last year, I was asked to cut my hair during Ncc Specialist Course.. Aku punye lah bodoh, leh suruh si Sharizal guntingkan rambut aku.. hahakz... He ruin my hair completely sia.. Throughout the day, the other cadets were like staring at me 24/7... Malu giler siow.. hahakz.. Well, at least I had my revenge.. biler dismissed aje, I quickly go and cut Sharizal's hair.. hahakz... Kekek sak.. I cant forget about it.. both our heads ended up in a total mess.. hahakz.. we laugh about it and went to the a barber to get our hair shaved.. keke.. Thats why, in our 2003's class photo, we were both bald.. keke.. Now, we finally feel satisfied.. at least I am.. keke.. Took an informal picture by sitting next to out discipline mistress, Mrs Lee.. Kekek giler.. hahakz.. Cant wait to check out the photos.. Gonna buy them all.. hehe.. Uat kenangan ar kirekan.. hahakz.. ;D

Interesting day...

Tuesday, August 3, 2004
09:09 p.m.
Well3, its the new me.. No more emo2.. keke.. Im feeling calm right now.. Err.. Agaknye ar.. Hahakz.. Well, today was quite interesting. Cos we got a celebrity INDA house.. Woo Hoo! keke.. err.. I mean, school.. guess wat?.. "Kimberly" from "Light Years" visited our school. Most of the boys were like GAGA over her.. hahakz.. Kecoh sia.. She really look like a malay, dont you think so? Hmm.. nvm... Well, our assembly was also great.. There was a drama on how to cope with stress and stuff.. keke.. Funny giler.. Its was hilarious.. Even si Irfan yang selalu tido during assembly, had his eyes wide opened.. keke.. Oh yar.. We also had Sexuality Workshop in the afternoon.. We were all divided into according to our gender.. In the class, the instructor keep on telling us alot of stuff.. He even mention about an incident when a woman cut off his boyfren's penis!It was said that the woman was fed up after being forced by his boyfren to go and abort her pregnancy for the 4th time!.. Thinking of it, I think the guy deserve that.. Dont wanna elaberate much on that... its gruesome, hahakz... Near the end of the workshop, the instructor show us a video on AbORTION! its totally sick man!! All the phoetus physically disected.. EEW!! Kecian sia ;S .. He also show us the medical tools doctors use during abortion.. Man, it freak the hell out of most of us... In fact, all of us were terrified.. except for Wan and some other chinese guys.. giler ar dorang.. How could they simply sit there calmly, feeling like as if they dont care or sumthing that.. giler punye owang.. hmm..Maybe, they had been asleep or sumthing.. uhuh.. anyway, through this Sexuality Workshop, we guys learn lots of stuff.. In fact, we already know all that.. Its just serve as a reminder.. It sure does.. hahakz.. Cos, I still cant get all those pictures,tools and videos outta my head... Im really glad that my mum didn't aborted me when I was in her womb.. seram.. hahakz.. well thats the end of today's entry.. ;D

The Choice Had Been Made.. For Now..

Sunday, August 1, 2004
09:25 p.m.
Thank all of you for willing to leave behind some advice.. You're all such a great friend.. I really appreciate that.. Had been down for a few weeks.. I dont even know what I've been thinking.. I even stupidly bought Malboro Merah.. thinking that I could end all this pain.. I still have the cigarette with me. DOnt worry, I haven't smoke yet.. And I dont think Im gonna start smoking too..I used to blame myself for everything.. I even thought of turning myself into a totally bad person.. hahakz.. How foolish Im I..? especially bout the cigarette part.. Gonna threw it all away.. Well, she just knew him for only two weeks... Now they even have feelings for each other.. Imagine as time passed by, their feelings will deepen.. Im not looking at that in a bad way.. Why should I? "They belong together. There's no place for me here.." keke.. taken from the movie, "Spawn".. Im not gonna listen to emo emo songs.. At least try not too.. Its just pull me down and I dont want to feel that way anymore.. She closed the door, and now Im walking away.. Im gonna "lead a happy life.. end with a happy ending..." keke.. Nice one.. best of wishes.. and oh yeah, happy birthday for all those who are born in August.. keke.. being a little bias here.. Im born in August too.. (evil laughter..) keke.. well cut that crap.. Wanna eat my pizza now! woo hoo!! ;P

My Own Drama..

Saturday, July 31, 2004
01:15 a.m.
After school, saw HER going into 2N1 classroom.. Pretended that I didn't saw anything.. Spend the afternoon and night playing soccer with my frenz... trying to distract my mind away from everything.. Added HIM to my msn... Had a conversation with HIM.. HE actually split out something about wat I and HER experienced during our relationship.. How could SHE told HIM regarding that? HE quickly tried to cover it up.. and I played along... Again, I pretended that I didn't saw anything..Later.. HE insulted my late father.. My fist clenched hard.. Again, I pretended that I didn't saw anything... Fake a smile.. Giggled here and there..At the sametime..I chat with HER at msn.. SHE changed dramaticly.. SHE answered everything in a single phrase.. Again,I pretended that I didn't saw anything.. Figured that SHE stay up late to simply CHAT with HIM.. Again, I fake a smile.. Giggled here and there.. a few minutes ago... THEY finally signed off together at 1am.. The show's over and I no longer need to pretend anymore.. Read her entry for today. SHE seems to be enjoying HERSELF.. Cool.. (Flashback, weeks ago) SHE asked me what do I want for my birthday, I didn't say anything... (Now) I wondered if SHE knew that SHE was on top of my wishlist... (Taking to myself) Madir, its time for you to move on.. THEY will live happily ever after...

Rest In Peace...

Thursday, July 29, 2004
10:27 p.m.
LIFE SUCK!! Why can't I lead a normal life like others...?? Why the &@#* am I going through all this shit.. Im sorrie guys for all these vulgarities.. I cant help it.. I dont care what you all are going to say when you read this entry.. Im gonna scream my lungs out and no one is gonna stop me!! I really cant get it. Why the &@#* does my own mum hate me?! What did I do??!! I've been enduring all this shit for the past few years and I can't take it anymore.. CHiLD AbUSER!! So MUCH for a mother's UNConDiTionAL LOVe.. I HATE YOU!! Wish that I was born into other family.. Family who cares, family who LOVE!! I lost everything... Lost my father.. Lost a girl... Used to thought that boy girl relationship would make up for all the love that I never had from my parents.. but I was wrong.. You, the one that I used to love most, now walked away waving your arms saying goodbye.. thank you so much.. May god bless you.. haiz...Why must this happened to me? How long will my prayers be answered? I really cant take it anymore.. Where am I gonna turn to now? Everybody's gone.. Leaving me all alone in the darkness... I feel so weak.. So faithless.. I picked myself up alot of times.. but I ended up falling down.. Harder and harder.. Dont know how many times I've been suffering.. NOboDY understands what I've been going through.. Maybe death is the only choice that Im left with... May My Soul ReSt In PeAce..

And Im Feeling This...

Wednesday, July 28, 2004
05:06 p.m.
Didn't went to school today... Dont feel like going... I dont know why... Wednesday is the most BORING day in school... Sumer lesson double period.. Furthermore got PE... I used to love PE alot.. but now, PE simply sucks as we like so call dont have freedom like that...Dulu leh main games tapi skarang stuck in the hall with a few other class doing some lame exercise... Therefore I think I skipped skool today pun worth it... Now, Im listening to lots of old songs... Such as Blink 182 and others... Really enjoy being at home today.. Playing songs at full blast! and Im feeling this...

Never meant to be love by anyone...

Monday, July 26, 2004
09:34 p.m.
Today Sucks.. Totally sucks... I was late for the 3rd time this semester.. I tried to hide myself in the toilet, hoping that I wont receive a detention slip from the prefects but it was a failure. I ended up standing in the front of the school..Ayo.. Paiseh liao.. Wan also late, tapi takya diri..Should have just follow Wan to have an early breakfast kat kedai kopi. If I follow him, I might escape from getting myself embarassed.. Well, one thing for sure, we still must attend detention tomorrow.. Had 6 free period today.. 2 from POA, 2 from Malay and 2 from CME.. Miss Salena Saleh tak datang, tapi our CME period was replaced by Social Studies.. Thinking bout it, it isn't so bad ar.. I kinda enjoy Social Studies.. Anyway, when home early today.. Saw someone.. Felt like a stab in my heart.. Feels like wanna burst into tears.. As my friends walked away, I just went to food court to have lunch.. Alone.. Feels alot better.. I think? uhuh.. Reached home at 3plus.. Just read newspapers, switching tv channels and ended up sleeping... That was in the afternoon... Now, Im just staring at my computer, feeling down, faithless, broken hearted, lost... and the list goes on and on... Well, who cares anyway..?? Not even my mother or father.. All my love ones seem to have vanished.. I guess, Im just never meant to be loved by anyone.. Not even you..

So Much For My Happy Ending...

Sunday, July 25, 2004
10:05 p.m.
Feeling kinda down at the moment.. Feel like as if my soul is torn into pieces.. Haiz.. Now, Im just standing by my window... Listening to Avril Lavigne's "Happy Ending"... I love the lyrics.. Its meaningful..Well, I've got nothing else to say I guess.. Goodnight..

My Sincere Apologies..

Saturday, July 24, 2004
10:38 p.m.
Hi guys.. Sorrie lamer tak update.. My computer jam ar.. Ikut kan hati rase cam nak pecahkan aje.. tapi takleh... Madir syg computer dier.. hahakz.. ;P Well, for the past few weeks got lots of stuff.. From GCE O level exams, to Hamid and Fadillah's birthday bash, to bazaa 2004, to Flag Day.. giler lar.. there's alot of entries dah i missed! Damn.. takpe2.. berdoa lar ye agar si Madir dapat update.. ;D insyallah...

Home Alone

Sunday, July 11, 2004
08:10 p.m.
Today, nothing much happened.. I draw a self portrait of myself.. keke.. Looks a little different.. What to do, I sucks at art.. keke.. Well, went to Tampines Mall this afternoon...Alone..Cam loner,hahakz..well,I Bought a studded bracelet... Been wanting one so badly.. Now I own one, WOO HOO!! On the way home, terserempak ngan Tarah,Sherliza(not sure of the spelling) and some other peepz.. Well, I gtg, wanna watch Home Alone bEbeH... Ciao! ;D

Spiderman 2

Saturday, July 10, 2004
03:56 a.m.
I've just returned home from a mid night night movie.. The Spiderman 2.. Went to the cinema together with Azmi, Effie, Wan And Fahmi.. hahakz..Spiderman 2 rocks!! Its far much better than Spiderman 1... Improved costume, more stunts, more emo,love and laughter.. hehe.. You should catch this movie! Its worth it... Trust me.. ;) well, gotta write the entry for the day.. FLaSHbACK starts NOW bEbEH!! ;P

Well, at 8pm I meet the others at one of my friend's block.. At 9pm, we proceed to Tampines Mall to catch a movie..(Spiderman 2..) The movie was full house except for the last show which started at 1250am.. Hahakz.. teruk.. tapi ape nak buat? Terpakse lar tunggu sampai 1250am.. hahakz.. So we just slack around before going to MacDonalds to eat our dinner...

Kat MacDonalds we found out that Dawn Prima Ria(an actress from Anak Metropolitan) was seating just opposite of our table.. keke.. Feels good to make an eye contact with an actress... Furthermore, dier balas balik our smiles... Giler LAR! Dahsyat..so sweet.. hehe ;P... Well, at first we thought of approaching her and mintak ambil gambar.. Tapi tak jadi... Masing2 takot.. hahakz.. Kecoh.. ishkz x3 ;D ...

Around 12am, we naik tingkat 4, and sitted outside the cinema.. Talk2, chat2, blah blah blah.. hahakz.. We were the only teenagers around, while the others were all adults, couples etc etc.. hahakz.. Looking at them, jealous jugak man.. Hahakz.. I got no date.. (crying) ;P hehe

We entered the cinema earlier by 20 minutes... There wasn't anybody yet.. So ape lagi?! uat kecoh ar! we run3,jump3,roll3, etc etc.. keke.. cam dak2 seh.. hahakz.. Then the movie starts.. WOO HOO!..
Well, now Im back at home.. Later ade science practical at 730am.. I only got 2hours and a half to sleep.. Ayo! kkz.. Thats all folkz.. Wanna sleep liao.. Nitez2.. MUAHehEAKEke.. ;P

Youth Day!

Monday, July 5, 2004
11:45 p.m.
Started the day by following my mum pergi town untuk collect a prize.. Then later that afternoon, I called up Firman. We planned to watch Spiderman2,skali full house pulak.. Upset.. ;( hahakz.. Jadi terpakse lar merayap sane sini.. Tersempak ngan Shahirah, dak graduate.. kecoh.. hahakz.. Her hair copper blonde siow.. Dahsyat.. Takpe.. Later I dye green ar.. ;P .. We continue merayap2 and tibe2 I realised that I bought a new bag and a pair of shoe schools.. hahakz.. Nie lar Madir, dah one week school reopening aru nak beli barang2 skola.. hahakz.. giler nye budak.. Nak Detail? kz.. I bought an Umbro school shoe and a Nike bag kat Century Square. Hah! dah penat jalan2, I decided to go to the money changer.. gi tukar S0 ke US money.. Dapat US in return.. hahakz.. Why I change? ERm.. Entah.. hahakz.. for fun perhaps? keke.. Well actually,Im just trying to save money.. Tak nak overspend ar kirekan.. hahakz.. kz.. then went to Pavillion play Counter Strike.. Gi beli bubble tea.. Gi kedai kopi.. bla bla bla.. and now, Im sitting in front of my computer, talking crap.. hahakz.. Well, I gtg pack my books into my new bag WOO HOO!! hmmm... ayo pening seh, got too many compartments.. hahakz.. kkz, enuf talking crapz. Nitty NITE! TERAHZ! ;D

My Computer SORTZ!!

Monday, July 5, 2004
11:28p.m.
Damn.. Just now my computer sort.. Nak type takleh.. Nak restart takleh.. Some sort cam jam ar.. Im frustrated cos I wanna chat with someone.. I think she was like waiting for me to reply even though she ended the conversation by saying goodnitez.. haiz... sedih.. well, I gotta write the entry for the day.. Here I GO!

Moffats; I Miss You Like Crazy...

Sunday, July 4, 2004
08:06 p.m.
This Song is dedicated to someone special... I admit, this song is kinda outdated however, it really matches my feelings right now... Do enjoy this song.. ;)

Malay O Level Listening Comprehension...

Saturday, July 3, 2004
05:29 p.m.
Had Malay O Level Listening Comprehension just now... Its was kinda easy.. There was only 10 questions... The answers given were all similar.. We had to choose properly as the answers sumer tricky.. hahakz.. hopefully I manage to score well.. For this year Olevel candidates out there... best of wishes... ;)

A Nightmare...

Saturday, July 3, 2004
06:47 a.m.
I just woke up from a very bad dream.. I dreamt that my mum passed away... Leaving me behind as an orphan.. My other relatives were like pushing me away like as if Im a stray cat or sumthing... They were like forcing me to leave and join the orphanage.. I felt really lost and broken hearted, like as if, I dont even have a family.. I feel like a child lost in the darkest night... I woke up with watery eyes... For a moment, it really hurts me... I end up taking a morning bath... Lepas tu sembahyang subuh than add this entry.. I dont wanna go back to sleep again.. Hope I can sleep well tonight.. Well, I gtg... Will be having O level listening comprehension later.. best of luck for you guys...

Ncc.. The best CCA Ever...

Thursday, July 1, 2004
08:02 p.m.
Just return home from school.. Had Passing Out Parade(POP) just now.. We were all very tired... However, we manage to crack a smile and congratz the sec 3s.. the newly appointed appointment holder.. As S3, Im being replaced with Shidi... Really had fun in NCC.. Had such a wonderful memories... Ncc is like a home to me.. Whenever, I feel stress or upset, I would turn to NCC.. Man, I really miss those days.. Days that I will treasure for my entire life.. We hold the POP together with the Ncc girls.. Telling you honestly, we Sec 4s dont really have much confidence in our successors... Haiyo.. Hope our boys will be able to do a great job... I would be looking forward to come back as a CLT next year... Insyallah.. Had lots of fun today.. Its a tradition for our boys to celebrate by pinching their senior's nipple.. hahakz.. rabakz... Lucky I managed to excape... I was like hiding behind a wall while I could hear the scream of pain and egony all around.. hahakz.. too bad.. padan muke korang.. ;D The girls in the other hand, cried and hug their senior..We boys lak gi pinch each other's nipple.. So sweeeet... ;S hahakz, giler punye owang..... Well, despite all these joy and laughter I really feel sad deep inside.. HiDOP MaTI NCC!!! keke..

First Day Of Term 3

Monday, June 28, 2004
10:16 p.m.
Sekelip mate aje, holiday dah habis... Sedih.. ;S Dah ar homework satu pun tak sentuh.. haiyo... rabakz.. Hmm.. basicly, today had a bad hair day.. Kinda feel disgusted at my own hairstyle.. hahakz.. pendek giler.. Cam dak2 nerd gitu.. Lately, been feeling kinda down.. Spend most of my time duduk one corner sorang2.. Cam loner like datz.. haiz.. Hmmm... took my framed painting home today..(the one I did for mid year art examinations last year..)Now, I still dont know wat to do with it hahakz.. Perhaps, I'll hang it on my bedroom's wall..Had our new sitting arrangement today.. I'm being moved to the back, sitting right next to Whe Zhen.. However she wont be in skool till Friday.. That means I'll be sitting alone... (sobbing...hahakz..)

Good Charlotte - Hold On

Sunday, June 27, 2004
11:19 p.m.
This world, this world is so cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
you're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits
You this pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go through
Hold on... if you feel like letting go
Hold on... it gets better than you know
Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't
want to no more But we all bleed the same way as you do
WWe all have the same things to go through
Hold on... if you feel like letting go
Hold on... it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Hold on... if you feel like letting go
Hold on... it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over... hold on

Emosi..

Sunday, June 27, 2004
04:33 p.m.
Keluarkanlah jasadku daripada kesengsaraan.. Perkataanmu mencurahkan cuka di kelukaan hatiku yang hancur bagaikan kaca yang dihempas kuat ke batu.. Langit yang muram dan ombak yang resah.. Ku yakin yakin tidurku akan diganggu gelisah dan gelabah.. Kata katamu akan tergiang giang di telingaku.. Hari demi hari ku digigit kesepian yang amat menyeksa.. ;(

HaPpY FaThErS DAY!!!

Sunday, June 20, 2004
12:29 a.m.
Been I long time since I last updated my blog.. Juz found out that its Fathers' Day!.. keke, (bez nak kecoh eh..hahakz..) Wished I could celebrate this special day.. Hmmm.. maybe I shall visit the cemetery tomorrow.. Wonder how much I have to pay to get a taxi ride to the cemetery and back home.. perhaps ?? hmmm.. nvm.. Well, lately I've been placing my eyes on the newest hp in town.. Nokia 7610.. Gonna buy that Hp by the end of July.. woo hoo.. Been such a tough week lately.. at least it would be sumthing happy for me to be looking forward too.. well, I think thats all for today.. Remind me to update kz? keke.. kz.. bubbyez.. ;D

Finally! A Smile Across My Face.

Friday, June 11, 2004
05:39 p.m.
Tadi pagi I was reminded to accompany my little brother Mustaqim,9, to the clinic tomorrow.. Besok dier kene SUNAT!!! WoO HOoo.. Haha.. Dier tak abez2 kene kacau by me.. I think I frightened him to death.. keke.. I said ar, the tools used are those found in hardware shop example, chain saw, G clamp,etc etc..Haha.. kecian dier... Takpe, biler Hari Raye leh mintak maaf..keke.. Hmm... Macam ane eh, dier rase sekarang.. Nampak macam chill aje.. leh main game boy sumer.. keke.. I recalled biler dulu kene sunnat together with 2 of my cousins.. Mase tu sunnat kat polyclinic.. I think I was around the age of 6 or 7... My 2 cousins which are older than me by two years kacau2 me.. But in the end, I ended up with a smile while they kept crying... Haha.. Padan muke doRANG! Sweet Memories.. keke.. Most people dont know how my brother Mustaqim look like.. He resembles my mom while I resembles my dad.. Style~ keke.. I tried adding his picture to this entry but tak clear.. wat a waste.. ;S

Home Sweet Home..

Wednesday, June 9, 2004
03:18 a.m.
Im finally at home..Been going out with my friends for more than 36 hours..keke.. balik stakat mandi samer salin baju.. Semalam ton kat rumah Haliff.Family dier gi Malaysia.. Erm.. well, since dah lamer jugak tak update, I'll try to summarise everything into this entry.. Basicly nothing much to talk about.My frenz and I stakat lepak2, kecoh2 etc etc... Two days ago, terserempak ngan lots of peeps from East Spring Sec.. We bang into Shakila samer Atiqah kat kawasan Figure 8.. Used to hang out there alot ngan Farid samer dak2 skate..dak2 piss dunkz(lupe ar cam ane nak spell keke..sorrie guys..) skarang the park is full with dak2 culture.. sumer muke2 baru.. Well, kite org datang sane, untuk relax sejap.. Then proceed to Festival Park.. Before that, si Syahid gi mintak from Shakila.. Kau.. dier tak tahu malu sak.. Ade ke mintak duit dari pompan.. Haiyo.. rabakz.. Nie lar, kwn2 kez dah desperate nak hisap rokok.. Hah, dak2 di sane.. Jgn skali2 hisap rokok.. tak bagus.. keke.. Ngok me, chill aje.. haha.. ;P Bez biler malam gi Tampines Mall.. Terserempak ngan Shaqeena,Wada,Kyn samer Farah.. Ayo, ramai2 terperanjat beruk.. keke.. Kyn approached and said sumtin bout bende adobephotoshop ke ape tah.. I just ar2 kan aje.. keke.. jahat eh? sorrie ar Kyn.. Org ngah dalam keadaan shocked ar.. keke.. Erm.. from here, I cant really remember much, tak salah, we go buy shu shi.. then gi lepak2, slack2.. etc.. dah penat, terus gi ton kat umah Haliff.. Now, Im at home.. Trying to sleep.. I wonder what another person is doing on the other side of the world.. Hmmmm... ZZzzzZZzz.. ;D

Just Woke Up..

Sunday, June 6, 2004
08:13 a.m.
Just woke up.. Hamid tak tido for the whole night.. He just use my com.. I suspect he go surf or download porn ar.. siak betol.. haha.. dier kejutkan sumer dalam kol 730.. Kacau aje ar.. Orang ngah besh2 tido.. Aiyo.. Dier cakap kite org tidur "style".. According to him, Effie tidur berdengkur kalahkan babi..haha..busted.. Haliff, I cant remember.. Syahid tidur tiarap..haha...Ashraf tidur pegang dier nye.. argh nvm.. gross sak.. ;S.. Me lak ngigau.. keep on calling out for my father.. Well, I think thats true ar.. Dah lamer tak mimpi bout my late father.. Rindu giler.. :( Now, I'm just listening to songs while blog hopping.. I gotta comment bout how upset I am when I observed that peeps tag others nye tagboard by leaving insults.. Dah kutok2 bukan nye nak letak namer sebenarnye.. Find it very irritating.. haiz... I hope none of that will happen to me.. Well, now Im really bored.. Donnoe samer ade nak tido alik ke tak..haiz.. BANGUN AR SEMUA.. masuk msn ke ape.. keke.. and I would go blah blah blah and you would say wateva.. haha.. hmm..sounds familiar.. ;)

What A Day...

Sunday, June 6, 2004
03:56 a.m.
Started the day by going for footsal training at 2pm. Some of the ncc boys were selected to work together with Tampines Sport Counsel to take part in the annual sports tournament... One of them is me of cos.. keke... Erm.. We trained at Pasir Ris Park..quite fun ar.. we walk all the way home.. giler eh.. we crawl our way out of park connecter nye bridge sane.. kekek giler.. haha.. cam those in Army like that... Now, my friends, Haliff, Effie, Ashraf, Hamid, Syahid sumer ngah overnight kat my house.. Sssshhh... Effie samer Haliff ngah tido... keke.. Meh ar semue join skali.. keke.. K lar.. Lum tido2.. confirm nanti tak leh bangun.. haha... Camat Pagi.. ;D

Can this dream be for real...?

Saturday, June 5, 2004
03:19 a.m.
Well, this might be boring to you guys but I'm just gonna continue with this.. For those who dont really know me that much..I'm someone who is totally crazy in getting the latest handphone in town..(jangan salah faham,Im not rich..serious..) I've heard bout this Nokia 7610 through the internet.This model dahsyat giler..Function dier cam computer,radio,camera,video camera..bla bla bla all in one...Very impressive.. Im currently using Nokia 6600 but I've been waiting a long them for this Nokia 7610... Sampai skarang lum keluar2.. Upset.. Semalam mimpi dapat beli hp nie.. (keke, rabak ar Madir sampai termimpi2 sal handphone sumer.. wakakaz..)Well, hopefully I manage to buy this hp when its out in the market.. insyallah.. ;)


My Current Handphone... (Nokia 6600)


My Future Handphone...?? (Nokia 7610)

Harry PortHEAD!

Thursday, June 3, 2004
10:28 p.m.
Yeah.. today go watch Harry Porthead.. keke.. Reminds me bout scary movie 2.. well, the the movie was great.. lots of magic stuff, time traveling and suspense... cant say much, wait tak besh ar if you guys wanna watch that movie... keke.. Been reading the papers bout Harry Porter... it was mention that they are currently filming the next movie.. I forgot the tittle ar.. sowwie.. well, talk too much bout this Harry Porthead.. Go watch the movie ar.. For Fun ke.. Pape ar.. Kalau free ajak ar.. hehe.. ;D

ACAB Streets Of Uptown

Thursday, June 3, 2004
12:18 a.m.
Listening to Streets Of Uptown (ACAB)... Im banging my head off here.. Woo hoo~ Felt like moshing! keke.. dont know why suddenly got carvings for skinhead songs.. haha.. man, i should stick to punk songs man.. yeah bebeh.. (br)\m/, ( '"~_~)

Back From Mid Night Shopping!

Thursday, June 3, 2004
12:09 a.m.
Back From Mid Night Shopping! wakakaz... Woke up at 5pm today.. Sal semalam (or should i say pagi tadi?) gi torn samer lepak2 kat luar with haliff, syahid, and hamid.. balik dalam kol 7 pagi gitu..Wah.. Madir makin jahat eh? wakakaz.. Alone kat rumah.. Haus giler..Icebox sumer kosong.. Bummer.. Then turun gi 7 eleven.. Biler keluar rumah cam bau sumthing burning.. I also dont know wat ar.. So I just proceed to the 7 eleven.. I grabbed lots of snacks and drinks.. Haha.. Cam nak gi picnic like that haha.. Total up, I spend .85.. GIler eh? haha.. Now, im chatting with peeps.. Eating mesh potato and drinking French Cafe(cappuccino) woo hoo~ tak leh tido..Kan gerek kalau ade kawan skarang.. keke.. Well, LEtz Watch VCD..! bubbyez!

Yellowcard - Way Away

Sunday, May 30, 2004
04:24 p.m.
I think I'm breaking out
I'm going to leave you now
Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

Letting out the noise inside of me
(Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering
(Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak
(Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe

Letting out the noise inside of me
(Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering
(Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak
(Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

What A Night~

Saturday, May 29, 2004
06:52 a.m.
Just return home from Sun Plaza Park... For the last 12 hours I've been hanging out with my friends.. macam2 tempat we lepak.. haha.. giler~ erm.. I was with Ashraf,Fahmi,Wan,Hamid,Syahid,Effie,Haliff and Izyan... We were hanging out kat playground kat kawasan opposite century square; the playground with a merry go round.. Most of us muntah biler habis naik merry go round.. kekek giler.. haha.. it was damn fast.. biler turun aje masing2 cam drunk like that.. haha.. rabakz.. around 2am, we experience a very strange encounteer... Giler lar.. dont wanna talk about it.. haha.. pape ask me personally ar.. well, we walked all the way to sun plaza park and went home at 6am.. so here I am writing my entry.. Today, planning to go to gig at esplanet (dont know how to spell.. keke) but for now, i gtg to sleep... ngantok giler~ ZZzzzZzzz... morning~ ;D

Listening To Yellowcard

Thursday, May 27, 2004
10:38 p.m.
This Band really rockz man... They have a violinist and he's not like playing classical tunes but instead, he plays his violin and match with the flow of punk rock.. Dahsyat.. I've been listening to almost all of their songs..example, "breathing", "starstuck", "powder", "sureshot" , "way away", "ocean avenue"...etc.. hmmm.. maybe one day, I wanna try learning how to play violin.. keke.. ye2 aje si Mahathir nie... wakakaz.. "you cant stop me now... you cant hold me down.. you cant keep me here... Im ON MY WAY!!" (Yellowcard - Way Away) yeah!! \m/, ( '"~_~)

Sembunyi2~

Thursday, May 27, 2004
09:57 a.m.
Helo, just adding an entry.. Skarang ngah kat computer lab.. Hahakz... Kz thats all, bubbyez...

Menyesal...

Thursday, May 26, 2004
10:22 p.m.
Haiz... Today, went to skool despite the fact that I'm still ill.. Skool was totally boring... Member banyak tak datang.. keke.. Actually tak banyak sangat ar.. Cumer Hafiz,Wan samer Fahmi aje tak datang.. Hmmm.. Spend the first half of skool sleeping in the class.. Slack giler~ We were like having 4 periods of freetime.. The rest sumer stakat bobal..For myself, I just sleep.. takleh angkat ar.. Felt sleepy after eating my medicines... Then got two period of recess.. Gerek~ First time~ Erm.. then got stuck in a malay class at computer lab 3 with Cikgu ALIMAH... First2 aje cam gerek ar.. Dier cam kelakar ar.. Then as time passed by, we realised that jokes dier sumer lame giler.. uhuh~ Well.. basicly after skool just went straight home and sleep.. tak leh angkat ar.. Im still sick!! kecian eh? ;( hehe.. I should have just skipped skool tadi..haiz...

Mission Accomplish

Tuesday, May 25, 2004
01:07 p.m.
At last... I manage to create my first ever original template... Took me ages man.. I love this layout but the problem is the colour scheme... The words are really difficult to see.. am i right?? Gotta keep improving on it. Well.. I've been away from school since last friday.. I'm really ill and I might face death any moment now.. (To those who keep reminding me to update my blog) I've done my job!! keke.. well, gtg.. bubbye!! ;D

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